Testify

I testify my faith in you.

The words you say are true.

In the light I've found something to hold on to.

Something to belong to.

Be as it may I've always had you.

I was blind I couldn't see.

You were standing right in front of me.

I testify my love for you.

The feelings I have are true.

In the dark I was lost, full of sorrow.

Be at it may it will be a happy tomorrow.

I was deaf, I couldn't hear.

The sound of you near.

~Ashley Autumn Schandelmeier~2005~

*************ME*************

Mysterious me

Unlucky me

Fridays child

ARE THE CARDS DEALT TO ME.

Bastard child

Motherless girl

Hurting inside

NO ONE TO TELL BUT ME.

Bad family

One good person

No money

NOT A GOOD LIFE FOR ME.

Want more

Need more

Will have more

MORE AND MORE TO SEE FOR ME.

Crying inside

I'm lying

I'm sorry

FOR ALL THE EVIL IN ME!

Anger hiding

Not true

Not what I want to be

I'M NOT THE REAL ME!

Sexy

Profane

Crazy

ARE ALL THE REAL ME!

Hide them

To please....

To deceive

EVERYONE BUT ME!

Living but not lively

Not happy

Only one person.......

UNDERSTANDS ME!

One only one

Wants the real,

Sexy, profane, crazy woman

THAT'S ME!

~Ashley Autumn Schandelmeier~2004~

The Shameful Murder

Slice me with this axe and watch the blood pour from my veins.

Hear me cry out with all my might and feel no shame.

Crucify me for my crimes and all my lies.

Deceive yourselves and watch the tears pass my eyes.

Watch this and do nothing without remorse.

Don't change fate, let it run its' course.

~Ashley Autumn Schandemeier~2005~

Mend (Full Version)*

Mend my broken trust by living but a mere moment with me,

Just enough to show you care.

Not for the rest of your days.

Unless you take it upon yourself.

It wouldn't be your duty.

But instead, your pleasure.

Mend my broken heart by telling me these simple words,

I really meaning you,

Love symbolizing your feelings towards me,

and finally you meaning me.

Show me your true feelings towards me

If there are none so be it.

It was swell while it lasted

But say it isn't so.

Don't speak the words that would break my soul.

Instead tell me your love is everlasting.

Tell me we will be together for an eternity.

My love and yours would move mountains.

But, only if it is true, love me as I love you.

Desire me as I do you.

Keep me by your side for all your waking moments.

Let our memories revolve around us.

Let no one deprecate our love.

It is true.

Our love is...

Angelic.

Our desire...

Demonic.

Is it a sin to love thee?

No I think not!

Perhaps it is a sin to give myself to thee?

No I think not!

How could it when I feel no regrets..

Tell me you'll be faithful.

Only to me.

Proclaim your love for me

Don't deny it.

I know it's there

Love me for who I am

and all that I'll be.

Make me yours forever

and I'll make you mine.

May god for give me for my selfish ways.

Once more I plead

Mend my trust, love, body, & soul

by telling me only one thing.....

That you love me.

~Ashley Autumn Schandelmeier~2004~

*This poem was published in book and I had to edit some of the verses out.

Vampires Spell

I lure you in with my stare

I captivate you with my kiss, my soft red lips

I smell you just to savor you scent

I taste you with my soft velvet tongue

Just when you feel safe that's when I'll take you

My fangs so sharp puncture your flesh

Your sweet blood arousing my senses, nothing is sweeter

You have no idea death is near

You don't fight as I drain you dry

Closer and closer death approaches

By the time you realize your demise it is to late

I have taken you, it was fate.

~Ashley Autumn Schandelmeier~2010~

Living Contradiction

A scared little girl

A strong woman

Two pieces of me

To fit one puzzle

The evil sister

The good daughter

Two members of me

Fighting for sanity

Rebellious teenage girl

Conforming woman

Two souls in me

Entwined in my jungle mind

Miserable old hag

Vibrant young woman

Two personalities in me

Driving me crazy

An internal struggle

A inner peace

What you'll see in me

If you only knew me

It's not simple

It's not complex

I am what I am

A living contradiction at best.

~Ashley Autumn Schandelmeier~2009~

Random verses that pop into my head.

~I am the seeker of truth, catching all the lies. I am the seeker of truth, with my three eyes~

~To be unusual is to be unforgettable.~

~When life gives you pain, create art.~

~Your such a little bitch, I'll tear you down and you'll frown.

Sulk away into your room, can't handle the woman with the crown.

Cry from the spoken truth, oh my how sensitive you've become.

What a little girl you are at heart, ever so cumbersome.

Go weep to your drone, may she be by your side.

Like a child, behind her you can hide.

You say your family, but I call bullshit.

Go ahead with this, your little hissy fit.~

~To the world I speak

Know only this

Wisdom is in the mind

But, also in the heart and souls of ourselves.~

~Mend me oh mighty God

Make me whole again

Tape my wings

So that I may fly

Put some spring in my step

Let me love and live once more.~

~To you I plea

From you I flee

Because of you I cry

For you I'd die

For you I long

With you I belong

Your my inspiration

To my future destination.~

~Love that is crazy

Never good for the soul

Bad for the mind

But, exciting for the whole.~

~I'm a volatile ticking time bomb.

Feeling your pain as I rip out your veins

Silent and deadly, never see me coming.

Underestimated and misunderstood.~

~Let those who worship you bow and those who don't perish from your thoughts. ~